Sunday, September 21, 2008
❤ 2nd.. again
I am sick and tired of being scolded, accused of or whatever every minute of my life!Why in the world do all of you think that I enjoy it so much?For every small little thing I do, I get shouted at.But, he gets whatever he wants even if he is rude to you.You cant help it, can you?I guess it has become a habit.. and habits dont go away, huh?
Well, you don't even bother in the first place!!
Now, I'm the evil one. Maybe, you know what?
Fine, let it be.. I'm a bad person, ok?
One that doesn't even deserve any care, thought or what-so-ever.
I'm fine with that. But,
not responding to a person when he/she needs help..
I'm still a person, aren't I?
I am currently at the losing end now, aren't I?
Fine, if you insist.
If you're not going to help me,
I just have to depend on myself.. ..and not anyone else
I made a promise to myself
and it is a promise that I am willing to keep
It is to do whatever it takes
to do evrything I want
without any one of your help or what-so-ever
I don't need your concern
cuz it just brings me down
btw, thanks for saying your ever-most comcerning words to me
"Do really want to flunk everything, every aspect?"
with that disgusted look on your face.
Have I caused you that much trouble?
Just tell me, if so.
Then, I'll never make you worry or even feel concerned again.
I'll disappear if I have to even if I have nowhere to run to.
I'm expressing myself freely here...
I feel like an adopted child.
I feel like you're treating me this way just because.
It would make sense if I were adopted..
It does fit.. really
You were never really happy when I was..
You were never sad when I was.. you were even angry..
Compared to his circumstances,
when he cried, you embraced him in your arms with eyes as watery as ever.
when he was happy, you couldn't surpress your joy.
when he was being silly and a brat, you found him just so adorable and irresistable.
I don't feel like explaining my cicumstances.
Its just the total opposite. It doesn't matter anyway.
