I hope for a vain expectation but now it’s useless~
I spend long nights by myself, erasing my thoughts a thousand times~
I become dull day by day~
Those tears will dry completely.. As time passes by~

Leave.. just let me be alone for now.. I'm going to rethink this all over again. Its like all my hopes and dreams will be crushed if i go this way.. I know you think its for the better, but I hate it..
Fine, I'll do it. If you really insist. I do know that you are very concerned, yeah, thanks, sure.. but easier said that done.. Dont you ever get it? Stop belittling my to him.. he's such a prince.. I told you so many times but you just deny it. You say that you have treated me better. If setting high expectations, not letting me do what I am really interested in, make me hate myself for this etc is your definition of better treatment, then fine. I really have to say this.. I HATE IT.
No way am I ever going to follow my crazy, unrealistic dreams right? Right? Is it test anxiety or sth that's really causing me to be depressed? Look here, I'm not crazy about some star right now.. Look, I;ve changed.. I've changed to suit the circumstances, having to obey you.. Yea, sure, you're doing this for me.. Ok, fine, I'll do it for me too.. I'll be doing this, working really hard, so that you cant blame anything on me anymore, So that I can finally get out of here. I'm evil, aren't I? Pursuing my dreams and following it is a very bad choice, right? I might even be hated for the rest of my life by the ones close to me, right? Well, that's how much I want to do it.. that's how much I wanna follow my dreams, to do what I want, to have fun. Ok fine, I may even be crying, thinking, pondering for nights about this, but he'll get his way still.. not me.



People come to me, sharing their worries, their pain & sorrow, its ok, its fine, alright with me.. but mine were never realised.. keeping it bottled up, yea, that's a great idea.. just wait till I find someone to throw it out all on. I'm lost. I've no idea what to do. I'm confused. I can't believe I'm actually saying this.. Someone.. Help Me.. I need help.

The heart that dreams little things.

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but a dream within a dream

• Tiara Amelia; 티아라 • 22 October • St. Margarets' Pri Sch; TKGS • "Though I can sigh, I can never give up my dreams" - 'Yesterday', Epik High



Ones Pieces - Epik High ft. Jisun
Pieces of You by Epik High
Love the lyrics.






My Crazy Friends
Jessica
Rachel
Jamie
Samantha
Amanda MJ
Marie 댄스 선배
Gloria 댄스 선배
Asyiqah 웨사천


x x x x

"That song I sang you that I put everything into
By myself, so that nobody else knows
Yeah, the words that I said were all lies
a loner left behind all alone
and me lost in the mist of it all
the breakup letter thats wrinkled
and folded up in my pocket, (hey) and my habit of calling for you and wondering where you are
i'm gonna change.
i'll laugh everything off from now on."

Big Bang Lies


My breathing becomes difficult.
Another day passes without you,
When dreams come I want to go find you,
I want to follow you,
Following your footsteps.
I want to live
In our hourglass where there is not much time left.
A desert of happiness,
So we can rest there for a long time.

I want to breathe looking into your eyes forever
I want to turn back time already

Epik High Pieces of You (Playing)


Just like being shot. 충 맞은 것처럼.